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Then why were you so good at it?

Anyone can be good at it! And I was the only one who would let you do it.

You did it before and you can do it again. [In one ear, out the other.]

Has Rogers given you a present yet? [He changes the subject so he can never be wrong.]

[ He blinks, caught off guard by that change of topic. ]

Steve? No. He is still teasing me about it.

Maybe he's still floundering. [Thor's smile is wry.]

He's working hard to meet your high standards.

[ A fond smiles touches his lips at that. ]

He works very hard indeed.

I hope it pays for him.

[He considers dancing around the subject before he decides to be crude.]

Have you bedded him yet?

[ Loki is no prude by any means, but even that blunt tone makes him stutter. ]

Thor you cannot just — [ He sighs, cutting himself off because Thor would do it regardless. ]

A few months ago.

[ And there's the faintest dusting of colour on his cheeks. ]

During the, ah, kink exhibition.

[Thor pretends to look scandalized, but he can't help but be amused. He's proud, he doesn't know why.]

Very bold of the Captain. [He quirks a brow.] He must have met your standards, then.

[He knows how fussy Loki can be.]

I made those up.

[ For the most part. Loki hadn't really believed in them. They were a pipe dream. Steve, however was real and his devotion was real. ]

But he thinks the world of me.

[It makes Thor happy to hear, but there's a hollow feeling in him. If he's interfering too much, if Loki wants more space than he's giving him.]

He's a clever man. [Thor hums.] I'm happy to hear it.

[ Loki eyes him briefly, expecting some form of jib before he relaxes. ]

. . . Thank you.

[ He's tempted to say if Thor hadn't been here, if Loki had been alone, it could have been far worse. Chances are he wouldn't have tried at all, simply resuming the cycle once more. But Loki still cannot put that to words. ]

[Sincere surprise crosses Thor's face. He thought he was being a hassle, and he genuinely can't imagine why Loki would thank him.]

For what?

[ For trying, but Loki balks at saying so. Instead he shakes his head. ]

I needed to say it.

Then I'm sure I needed to hear it.

[It's hard to say I appreciate it. It's hard to take credit for anything when he feels almost selfish for how much he clings to Loki.]

[ Loki glances at Thor, trying to gauge his mood. Thor has changed, far beyond what Loki believed he could. Sometimes that leaves him askew, unsure of where he stands with his brother. He has always, to some degree, relief on the belief that Thor would always be there, even when he was frustrated or tired with Loki. Save for his disastrous fall, that has always proven to be true. But all favors, all good intentions run out and Loki has expended them continuously.

So he lingers in fear. ]

I have never done it before. I suppose I am . . . trying.

[Something has changed in Thor. Something that tells him that all his pushing, all his effort is for nothing when what Loki wants is to make it on his own. He's not angry or bitter, though he is disappointed. He's just resigned himself to it.

Perhaps a while ago, he would have been elated to see Loki try. At this point, he feels himself become suspicious of the timing.]

Are you worried I'm going to die? [He asks, prying into where Loki's intentions lie.]

[ Loki blinks. ]

What? No. Why would — Is that what you think will happen with the canisters?

I don't know what will happen, I assume you don't either. [It's hard to be serious, alright.]

If you die, we'll be at tragic death number three.

[ Loki frowns. It had crossed his mind, but at this point, it's hard to be really upset about the possibility of dying. Though now he's vaguely irritated that Thor thinks Loki would say such things on a potential death bed.

( even though he's not wrong. ) ]

I do not, but I don't think I'll be dying either. Or you.

If witnessed my visions, you would be more concerned. [It's been a nightly thing. Lying in bed, seeing the visions play in his mind again.

And then he connects the dots.]

..Something has already come into fruition.

You have yet to speak of them fully to me. You know I have no real ties to Asgard's life.

[ Granted, their last conversation had been. Rough. ]

[Thor opens his mouth, closes it and realises Loki is right.

Briefly, he wonders if he should keep it to himself. Keep the torment to himself but ultimately decides that sharing the burden make it easier.]

I saw visions of Asgard. It was dark, people were dancing, laughing. [He gestures, vaguely.]

There was a hooded figure, but I couldn't see his face. Then Heimdall found me, and he was drunk. I think. And his eyes were white and he said I lead us all to Hel. That we were all dead. [He's going to keep gesturing as he rambles.] And then.. all of that power. That electricity. It was coming out of me and I couldn't control it, I killed someone and Heimdall told me that I am a destroyer. [He says it pointedly. The word has been cycling his mind for some time.]

After that, I began to see infinity stones. A gauntlet. The extinction of everything and- Stark's face. Which was the worst of it.

[He gives Loki a lopsided smile.] Do you think we should be concerned.

[ A gauntlet. A little colour slips from Loki's face though he hides it well. Had Thanos decided to change his mind? No, he wouldn't deign to come. He has nothing to fear from Earth or any other Realm. He prefers to let others do his bidding. Loki has a hard time picturing him coming for it personally.

He will make you long for something as sweet as pain. No doubt. Still, this vision had unusual signs. Thor mentions a figure and yet says his face. Heimdall's eyes and his wild prophecy.

Instead Loki clicks his tongue. ]

A vision with Stark? Awful indeed.

It would be foolish to ignore it. The Stones are dangerous business, wherever they may be. And Heimdall could always see far. But perhaps not far enough to say you are a destroyer. You may be reckless and not often cognizant of your strength, Thor, but you are a warrior. It is not in you to destroy.

There is a warning, but fear should not drive it.

Not on purpose. [Thor argues. Putting an end to his fear would require admitting that he's afraid of himself in the first place.]

You cannot tell me you aren't the least bit afraid of what will become of us. [He's almost desperate for Loki to admit that he's worried, too. He doesn't want to be the first to say that, for once, he truly is afraid of what might happen next.

He always goes into battle with confidence, but there's so much he can't comprehend and so many things he's learning only now. He's never had visions and he's never had power like this before.

Loki is the only familiar thing, but he may well have been what lead to their destruction. Regardless, Thor still wants him to be scared, so he can be the brave one who protects them.]

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