[The squeeze of his shoulder is more comforting than Loki probably even realises. Thor is starting to withdraw, somewhat. He feels less persistent about salvaging their relationship and yet, more confident that Loki will be fine on his own.
Sometimes he wonders if it would be better for them both if he were to leave this place alone. Leave Loki to his life, let him grow, do as he pleases without wondering what Thor will want of him.
Thor pats Loki's hand, but he can't help himself from holding onto it for a few seconds.]
He's in for a rude awakening, I'm sure. Maybe when I find him, we'll talk about it. Maybe he'll never bring it up so long as I have Mjolnir with me. It's not as if I'll lose it any time soon.
[He chuckles at the mere thought of actually losing his hammer.]
I think I understand a little better. Why you felt the way you did.
[ Loki eyes him briefly, expecting some form of jib before he relaxes. ]
. . . Thank you.
[ He's tempted to say if Thor hadn't been here, if Loki had been alone, it could have been far worse. Chances are he wouldn't have tried at all, simply resuming the cycle once more. But Loki still cannot put that to words. ]
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Sometimes he wonders if it would be better for them both if he were to leave this place alone. Leave Loki to his life, let him grow, do as he pleases without wondering what Thor will want of him.
Thor pats Loki's hand, but he can't help himself from holding onto it for a few seconds.]
He's in for a rude awakening, I'm sure. Maybe when I find him, we'll talk about it. Maybe he'll never bring it up so long as I have Mjolnir with me. It's not as if I'll lose it any time soon.
[He chuckles at the mere thought of actually losing his hammer.]
I think I understand a little better. Why you felt the way you did.
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It's not the same. And it is not — what I wanted.
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Knowing your self-control, you're bound to give everyone minute shocks.
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Maybe when we finally go hunting you can get help.
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And what would I be getting help for?
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Oh, no. We're not doing that.
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Not yet.
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Has Rogers given you a present yet? [He changes the subject so he can never be wrong.]
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Steve? No. He is still teasing me about it.
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He's working hard to meet your high standards.
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He works very hard indeed.
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[He considers dancing around the subject before he decides to be crude.]
Have you bedded him yet?
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Thor you cannot just — [ He sighs, cutting himself off because Thor would do it regardless. ]
A few months ago.
[ And there's the faintest dusting of colour on his cheeks. ]
During the, ah, kink exhibition.
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Very bold of the Captain. [He quirks a brow.] He must have met your standards, then.
[He knows how fussy Loki can be.]
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[ For the most part. Loki hadn't really believed in them. They were a pipe dream. Steve, however was real and his devotion was real. ]
But he thinks the world of me.
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He's a clever man. [Thor hums.] I'm happy to hear it.
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. . . Thank you.
[ He's tempted to say if Thor hadn't been here, if Loki had been alone, it could have been far worse. Chances are he wouldn't have tried at all, simply resuming the cycle once more. But Loki still cannot put that to words. ]
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For what?
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